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I feel so FREE!
I haven't eaten in 4 days. Wow. I didn't know it'd be this easy.
When I feel a pang of hunger, what do I do? I drink my lemonade, and away it goes.
This is great.
I went from 140 to 135 over night. How fucking sweet!
5 pounds in less than 24 hours.
I'm so excited, I'm going to go run up and down some stairs for a few minutes, and get my heart rate up, burn some calories, burn some fat, build some muscle.

So here's what I think of everyday eating, now.
Of course, you need food to survive, that's just the way life goes.
But you don't need to EAT 4, 5 times a day, you don't need to gorge yourself to feel better. That does nothing for your self-esteem or your health, or your goals.
SO what do you do then?
Pick up a hobby. If you only need to eat a few times a week for your body to run smoothly, then start working! Not some office desk job, either. I mean, WORK. Start growing a garden. Pick up some hemp rope and a couple of beads, make yourself or your friends some jewelry. Sell it, make some money! Go shopping. Spend that money so you don't throw it away at the donut shop.
Don't you want this? Don't you want to be free? Don't you want to be happy?

I'm happier right now than I've been in over a month. It's because I haven't eaten. I'm perfectly fine, now. Right now.

This is such a strange feeling...
I like it. :-)

Stay strong, girls!
You've only got a little bit more to go!

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My stats:
Height: 5'3''
CW: 140
HW: 150
LW: 125
1GW: 130 - by 2/14
2GW: 120 - by 3/14
3GW: 110 - by 4/14
Final GW: 105 and holding... maybe a little lower. Even a little [wee wee little] bit more, no higher than 115. That's my goal weight because it's the lower end of healthy for someone of my stature.

My reasoning for losing weight is as follows:
-Disease runs rampant in my family, including cancer, heart problems, diabetes...
-THIN - I don't think, I KNOW, that if I lose this 30/40 excess pounds of vile waste, I'll be who I want to be.
I know that I will be beautiful, thin, healthy, fit, toned, eating GOOD foods, I'll have NO cravings, I'll be attractive to others, I won't be the reverse trigger I now am, instead I'll be thinspirational. I KNOW that if I can lose this weight, and keep it off, I'll be loved. I'll love myself. I'll be smarter, faster, friendlier, I'll have a better personality, and... I'll be happy.
-HAPPINESS is what fuels me. If THIN is how I'm achieving happiness, then FINE. I'll do whatever I can for it. Ana is right - I'm fat, I'm huge, I'm gross, and I'm in need of help.

SO here's where you guys come in. I want an exercise buddy, or a motivational speaker, someone to help me and I can help you. I want assistance. I want someone backing me up when I feel my resolution wearing thin. [no pun intended].

I live in LA. Anyone out there? Let's hang out. Let's get THIN together. :)

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To dissolve and eliminate toxins and congestion that have formed in any part of the body.
To cleanse the kidneys and the digestive system.
To purify the glands and cells throughout the entire body.
To eliminate all unusable waste and hardened material in the joints and muscles.
To relieve pressure and irritation in the nerves, arteries, and blood vessels.
to build a healthy blood stream.
To keep youth and elasticity regardless of our years.
When To Use It:
When sickness has developed - for all acute and chronic conditions.
When the digestive system needs a rest and a cleansing.
When overweight has become a problem.
When better assimilation and building of tissue is needed.

How To Make It:
2 T. lemon or lime juice [approx. 1/2 lemon]
2 T. genuine maple syrup [not maple flavored sugar syrup. For this, you want Grade B maple syrup, and make sure there's no formaldehyde.]
1/10 t. cayenne pepper [red pepper] or to taste
Water, medium hot [spring or purified water]

Combine the juice, maple syrup, and cayenne pepper in a 10 oz. glass and fill with medium hot water. [Cold water may be used if preferred.]
Use fresh lemons or limes only, never canned or frozen juice. Use organic lemons when possible.
The maple syrup is a balanced form of positive and negative sugars and must be used, not some "substitute". There are four USDA approved grades of maple syrup. The early sap runs generally produce the lighter grades - Grade A Light Amber and Grade A Medium Amber, which were formerly known simply as Grade A. These lighter grades are mild in taste, sweet and with less mineral content than the darker grades. The mid-season runs generally yield mostly Grade A Dark Amber, formerly known as Grade B. Dark Amber has more mineral content and more "maple" taste. The end of the season brings mostly Grade B, which was formerly known as Grade C, with even more minerals and the strongest maple flavor. All grades can be used in the diet but the darker grades are the most desirable. The grading system is based purely on the relative deepness of the amber coloring and has nothing to do with the quality of the syrup, which is generally about the same for all organically produced maple syrup.
The maple syrup has a large variety of minerals and vitamins. Naturally the mineral and vitamin content will vary according to the area where the trees grow and the mineral content of the soil. These rae the minerals found in the average samples of pure maple syrup: Sodium, Potassium, Calcium, Magnesium, Manganese, iron, Copper, Phosphorus, Sulfur, and Silicon. Vitamin a, B1, B2, B6, C and Pantothenic Acid [B 5] are also present in teh syrup. Information on the need and effect of these properties will be found in the Biochemistry in the back of the book, "Healing for the Age of Enlightenment".
Some informed operators of the sugaring of the maple syrup do use formaldehyde pellets int he process of tapping the trees but there are many more that don't. Search out and demand teh kind tnot using formaldehyde. The Maple River Vallet in Westby, Wisconsin does not use it. This is the kind I recommend.
Dozens of letters weekly, from around the world highly praise the many superior benefits of the lemonade diet. Thus, we must conclude that since it does so much for so many it is truly The Master Cleanser. The following is a quote from one of the letters: "I tried the lemonade diet with exceptionally beneficial results. I would like to order at least six at whatever your wholesale price would be - I know I will need many more as I do push the books. I believe thy are the best in their field."
An ideal formula involves freshly extracted juice from the sugar cane [readily available in India, but not generally in the US at the present time]:
10 oz. fresh sugar cane juice [medium hot or cold]
2 T. fresh lime or lemon juice
1/10 t. cayenne [red pepper] or to taste
Another possible but lesser replacement could be pure sorghum. It does not produce equal or close to the benefits of maple syrup.

What About the Use of Honey?
Honey must not be used at any time internally. It is manufactured from the nectar picked up from the flowers by the bees - good enough in itself, perhaps -then predigested, vomited, and stored for their own future use with a preservative added. It is deficient in calcium and has many detrimental effects for the human being.
According to one authority, honey is "a magical and mystical word in Healthfoodland. It is one of the most overpromoted, overpriced product being sold to gullible health foodists. The great value attributed to honey is delusive... honey is only a little less empty and more dangerous than sugar."
Just as with alcohol, honey, being predigested, enters the blood directly, raising the sugar content very rapidly above normal. to correct this, the pancreas must produce insulin immediately or possible death can occur. More insulin than necessary is likely to be produced and the blood sugar level then drops below normal. This can produce blackout spells and even death if it goes too low. When blood sugar is below normal, a person will feel depressed. The regular use of honey can create constant imbalances which in turn will adversely affect the normal function of the liver, pancreas and spleen. Hypoglycemia and hyperglycemia are the results of the use of unbalanced sugars. The balanced sugar in maple syrup and sugar cane juice causes no dangerous side effects. All natural fruits and vegetables have balanced sugars in them. Artificial, synthetic, and refined sugars have no place in a natural diet.
Blend a part of the lemon skin and pulp with the lemonade in a blender for further cleansing and laxative effect. [Note: commercially procured lemons may have had their skin dyed with yellow coloring and may have been subjected to poisonous insect sprays - be sure to peel off the outer skin if you cannot get uncolored, organically grown lemons.] The properties in the lemon skin also act as a hemostatic to prevent excess bleeding and to prevent clotting internally should there be any such prevailing condition. [Don't worry - normal conditions will continue during the menstrual periods.]
Adding the cayenne pepper is necessary as it breaks up mucus and increases warmth by building the blood for an additional lift. It also adds many of the B and C vitamins.
Mint tea may be used occasionally during this diet as a pleasant change and to assist further in the cleansing. Its chlorophyll helps as a purifier, neutralizing many mouth and body odors that are released during the cleansing period.
How Much Does One Drink?
Take from six to twelve glasses of the lemonade daily during the waking period. As you get hungry just have another glass of lemonade. NO OTHER FOOD SHOULD BE TAKEN DURING THE FULL PERIOD OF THE DIET. As this is a complete balance of minerals and vitamins, one does not suffer the pangs of hunger. Do not use vitamin pills.
All solid food is turned into a liquid state before it can be carried by the blood the cells of the body. The lemonade is already a food in liquid form.
For those who are overweight, less maple syrup may be taken. For those underweight, more maple syrup may be taken. For those who are underweight and are worried about losing more weight, REMEMBER, the only things you can possibly lose are mucus, waste, and disease. Healthy tissue will not be eliminated. Many people who need to gain weight actually do so near the end of the diet period.
Never vary the amount of lemon juice per glass. About six glasses of lemonade a day is enough for those wishing to reduce. Extra water may be taken as desired.
Helping the Cleansing Along
As this is a cleansing diet, the more you can assist Nature to eliminate poisons, the better. If your system feels upset, it is because you are not having sufficient elimination. Avoid this possibility by following the directions completely. Above all, be sure you have two, three, or more movements a day. This may seem unnecessary not eating solid food, but it is Nature's way of eliminating the waste it has loosened from the various cells and organs in the body. They must leave the body some way. it would be just the same as sweeping the floor around and around and never removing the dirt from the house if the wastes were not passed out. The better the elimination, the more rapid will be the results.
A LAXATIVE HERB TEA is found to be the best helper for most persons. It is a good practice to take a good laxative herb tea right from the beginning - the last thing at night and first thing in the morning. There are several good laxative teas. they are best taken in a liquid form. Buy them in your health food store.
Another cleansing Aid: Internal Salt Water Bathing
As it is necessary to bathe the outside of our bodies, so it is with the inside. Do not take enemas or colonics at any time during the cleansing diet or afterwards. They are unnecessary and can be extremely harmful.
There is a much superior method of cleansing the colonic tract without the harmful effects of customary colonics and enemas. this method will cleanse the entire digestive tract while the colonics and enemas will only reach the colon or a small part of it. Colonics can be expensive while our salt water method is not.
DIRECTIONS: Prepare a full quart of luke-warm water and add two level [rounded for the Canadian quart] teaspoons of uniodized sea salt. Do not use ordinary iodized salt as it will not work properly. Drink the entire quart of salt and water first thing in the morning. This must be taken on an empty stomach. The salt and water will not separate but will stay intact and quickly and thoroughly wash the entire tract in about one hour. Several eliminations will likely occur. The salt water has the same specific gravity as the blood, hence the kidneys cannot pick up the water and the blood cannot pick up the salt. This may be taken as often as needed for proper washing of the entire digestive system.
If the salt water does not work the first time, try adding a little more or a little less salt until the proper balance is found; or possibly take extra water with or without salt. this often increases the activity. Remember, it can do no harm at any time. The colon needs a good washing, but do it the natural way - the salt water way.
It is quite advisable to take the herb laxative tea at night to loosen, then the salt water each morning to wash it out. If for some reason the salt water cannot be taken in the morning, then the herb laxative must be taken night and morning.
Should I Take "Supplements"?
Some people want to take vitamin pills or food supplements while on the diet. This frequently fails to produce the desired result. There are many reasons. As the lymphatic glands become clogged, they are no longer able to assimilate and digest even the best of foods. As we cleanse our bodies and free our cells and glands of toxins that clog and paralyze our assimilation, we free our various organs and processes to do their proper jobs. Note Page 20. All the necessary vitamins and minerals are in the lemonade, and therefore we do not need an additional supply in most cases.
Vitamin pills and supplements do not grow on trees as such but rather come to us in fruits, berries, vegetables, and plants. man will never take a group of natural or synthetic foods; process and combine them in a variety of products, and come up with anything equal or better than the original. They have lost much of their basic life and energy by combining them according to man made concept. Many dangerous side effects can occur because of improper and unequal balances present. Stay with the natural laws of balance. First one must decide if God is right if man is right. if God is right then Man and his ideas of processing - tearing apart and rearranging - are likely to be wrong.
Later, as we consume a more complete variety of foods, we find our sources of vitamins and minerals complete and in forms that are easily assimilated - it should not be necessary to return to these supplements even if one is accustomed to taking them. The sources of good food are steadily being enlarged as people become more educated concerning them. Search these sources and rely on them for your total nutritional needs.
The lemon is loosening and cleansing agent with many important building factors. The ability of the elements in the lemon and the maple syrup working together creates these desired effects.
It's 49% potassium strengthens an energizes the heart, stimulates and builds the kidneys and adrenal glands.
Its oxygen builds vitality.
Its carbon acts as a motor stimulant.
Its hydrogen activates the sensory nervous system.
Its calcium strengthens and builds the lungs.
its phosphorus knits the bones, stimulates and builds the brain for clearer thinking.
Its sodium encourages tissue building.
Its magnesium acts as a blood alkalizer.
Its iron builds the red corpuscles to rapidly correct the most common form of anemia.
Its chlorine cleans the blood plasma.
Its silicon aids the thyroid for deeper breathing.
The natural iron, copper, calcium, carbon, and hydrogen found in the sweetening supplies more building and cleansing material. It truly is a perfect combination for cleansing, eliminating, healing, and building. Hence, supplements are not needed during the diet and may actually interfere with its cleansing action.
What About the Use Of Vitamins?
Vitamins and minerals have always been a necessary part of natural living. Not satisfied with God's plan, man has attempted to improve the situation by separating them from fresh live foods, then processing and combining them to conform to his concept of what they should be. Not satisfied with the finished product, attempts were made to produce them synthetically. It was big business - and we became a world of "pill pushers,",whether they were needed or not. more often they were not needed. No one really knew if the pills were needed, or how many - people just took them because they might have a deficiency!
Just how many vitamins and minerals should be balanced and formulated led to many differences of opinion. A large variety of experts, in processing and manufacturing of pills, disagree as to how the many billions of pills should be made. They all have different formulas and claim theirs are the best even though much is lost in the processing. However, even without any clean consensus as to their worth and use, they were manufactured and processed; therefore they must be sold with no thought as to possible side effects from overdosing or imbalances. Millions of dollars are made by the producers and the seller with little regard for the true needs of the consumer.
in reality, the whole process could have been completely avoided. Our creator has already done a better job of making sure we receive all the needed vitamins and minerals in a perfectly balanced form. Only the finest of natural foods in their original package are good enough for bringing complete energy and life to build and retain a healthy body. Any time man attempts to improve on God's formulas and plans, the result is bound to be a failure.
The simple rules to complete nutrition include all the vitamins and minerals needed by all mankind and all animals. Our creator has given the right food for the right animal for complete nutrition. this is also true for man. When these foods are properly prepared and eaten, there is nothing more that man can do to prepare a better food.
As we eat the correct foods without excesses, the body will produce ALL the needed vitamins. Foods grown properly, in complete, mineral-rich soil, will have all the minerals in them. Thus, we have no need for vitamin enriched foods, created synthetically by man, nor for extra minerals.
All refined and devitalized foods must be completely eliminated from our diet. If refined and devitalized foods are eaten, then and only then does man have any need for additional supplements. Just how much and what combination, even with long and complicated tests, will probably never ben determined, so this form of unnatural nutrition will always be lacking. Such a plan is a very poor substitute for the right way.
Will It Make Me Feel Bad Or Weak?
In the cleansing process, some people experience a tremendous stirring up and may even feel worse for several days. It is not the lemonade that causes the trouble, but what the lemonade stirs in the system that causes our dizziness and other disturbances. Vomiting may occur under certain conditions; increased pain may be felt in the various joints of the body; dizziness may develop on certain days. if weakness develops at any time, it is the result of poisons circulating through the blood stream rather than a lack of food or vitamins. This diet gives a person all the vitamins, food, and energy necessary for the full ten days or longer in a liquid form. Rest and take it a littler easier if you have to - although most people can go on about their regular business without difficulty. Keep right on with the diet; don't give up or "cheat" by eating a little food or you may destroy the benefits.
Even though the lemon is an acid fruit, it becomes alkaline as it is digested and assimilated. It is, in fact, our best aid toward proper alkaline balance. there is no danger of "too much acid."
Alcoholics, smokers, and other drug addicts will receive untold benefits from this diet. The chemical changes and the cleansing have a way of removing the craving and the many probable deficiencies. Thus the desire for the unnatural types of stimulants and depressants disappears. The usual cravings experienced and suffered in breaking away from drugs, alcohol, and tobacco no longer present themselves during and after this diet.
It is truly a wonderful feeling to be free from slavery to these many habit-forming and devitalizing elements of modern living. Coffee, tea, and various cola drinks, as habit-forming beverages, also lose their appeal through the marvels of the lemonade diet.
How To Break the Lemonade Diet
Coming off the lemonade diet properly is highly important - please follow the directions very carefully. After living in a semi-tropical and tropical climate for many years, I find that people have increasingly turned to a raw fruit, nut and vegetable diet. Following is the schedule for people who normally follow such a natural vegetarian diet:
Several 8 oz. glasses of fresh orange juice as desired during the day. The orange juice prepares the digestive system to properly digest and assimilate regular food. Drink it slowly. If there has been any digestive difficulty prior to or during the change over, extra water may be taken with the orange juice.
Orange juice in the morning. Raw fruit for lunch. Fruit or raw vegetable salad at night. You are now ready to eat normally. For those who have characteristically lived the unnatural way of meat, milk, refined an devitalized food, it may be best to change over as follows, gradually adopting the raw fruit, nut, and vegetable diet:
Several 8 oz. glasses of fresh orange juice as desired during the day. Drink it slowly.
Drink several glasses of o.j. during the day - with extra water, if needed. Sometime during the afternoon prepare a vegetable soup [no canned soup] as follows:
Use several kinds of veggies, perhaps one or two kinds of legumes, potatoes, celery, carrots, green vegetable tops, onion, etc. Dehydrated vegetables or vegetable soup powders may be added for extra flavor. Okra or okra powder, chili, curry, cayenne [red] pepper, tomatoes, green peppers, and zucchini squash may be included to good advantage. Brown rice may be used, but no meat or meat stock. Other spices may be added [delicately] for flavor. Use salt delicately as a limited amount of salt is necessary. Learn to enjoy the natural flavor of the veggies. The less cooking the better.
Have this soup for the evening meal using the broth mostly, although some of the vegetables may be eaten. rye wafers may be eaten sparingly with the soup, but no bread or crackers.
Drink orange juice in the morning. At noon have some more soup; enough may be made the night before and put in the fridge. For the evening meal eat whatever is desired in the form of veggies, salads r fruit. No meat, fish or eggs; no bread, pastries, tea coffee or milk. Milk is highly mucus-forming and tends to develop toxins throughout the body.
[Milk, being pre-digested food, ha been known to cause various complications in the stomach and colon, such as cramps and convulsions. The calcium in milk is difficult to assimilate and may cause toxins the form of rheumatic fever, arthritis, neuritis, and bursitis. The resulting lack of proper digestion and assimilation of the calcium allows it to go into the blood stream in a free form and it is deposited in the tissues, cells and joints where it can cause intense pain and suffering.]
Normal eating may resume, but best health will be retained if the morning meal consists of our type of lemonade or fruit juice, and of course if a strictly fruit veggie seed and berry diet is followed. If after eating is resumed distress or gas occurs, it is suggested that the lemonade diet be continued for several more days until the system is ready for food.
RECAP OF THE STEPS TO BE TAKEN IN TEH DIET. Be careful to read the entire instructions so that the diet will be the best befit to you.
First prepare yourself mentally to follow in detail the entire directions and continue as long as is needed to make the necessary changes. One of the best signals of the completed diet is when the formerly coated and fuzzy tongue is clear pink and clean looking. During the diet it becomes very badly coated.
The NIGHT BEFORE starting the diet take the laxative tea.
In the morning take the salt water or laxative tea. This should be done each night and morning during the diet -r are exception - if diarrhea occurs. When diarrhea is ended then continue above directions.
breaking the diet - be absolutely sure you follow the directions very carefully to prepare your body for normal eating [our way]. Do not over eat or eat too soon. Serious problems [nausea] can occur if detailed directions are not followed.
How Do I Get My Protein?
Often the question is asked about the need for amino acids and animal protein foods. The need is highly exaggerated as only 16% of our body is protein. The answer to the question is very simple. We first need to understand that pure protein is primarily nitrogen, with oxygen, hydrogen, and some carbon. We all know we get a large share of our oxygen and hydrogen needs from the air along with some carbon. There is four times the amount of nitrogen in the same air as there is oxygen, hydrogen, and carbon combined. Since we are able to utilize and assimilate late a large amount of our needs of these elements into our bodies we are able to assimilate and build the nitrogen also into our bodies as protein. This is done by natural bacteria action which is capable of converting it to our use.
From the combo of the best of foods and clean air we are able to create our own amino acids, just as well as the animals do. We never try to feed amino acids to the animals. Thus we are able to eliminate the need for toxic dead animal flesh and have no further need to worry about our constant source of protein. Eat only the best variety of fruits, berries, nuts, veggies, seeds and sprouted seeds for a further complete source of protein.
People who smoke cannot pick up the nitrogen from the air so easily but will till get enough from proper food without the use of animal flesh. For your well being, however, elimination of smoking is a must.
Many people believe that eating meat give them strength. If this is so, then why are the strongest animals in the world vegetarians? Did you ever stop to think that the animals you do eat are vegetarian? Where did they get their strength? All the meat-eating animals find it necessary to sleep 16-18 hours daily because of excess toxins. The meat eating animals live a very short life. god has supplied such a bountiful supply of fresh, wholesome food that there is never a need to kill an animal for its more toxic flesh in our modern civilization.
Is Water Fasting A Good Thing?
The subject of water fasting often presents itself. I am very much opposed to several days or weeks of water fasting. it is too dangerous and is unnecessary to achieve the desired results of internal cleansing.
many people are already deficient as well as toxic. The longer they do without food, the greatest becomes the deficiency. The lemonade diet can more than match all the possible good obtained from fasting and at the same time will rebuild any possible deficiency.
Ordinarily with fasting it is necessary to take it easy by resting or staying bed. On the contrary, with the lemonade diet there is no need to become a useless member of society - you may live an active, normal life. Many workers at hard labor have found they are able to do more and harder work while on the lemonade diet than their normal diet.
After one has attained a clean, healthy body, and then desires to fast for purely spiritual reasons, thirty or even forty days can cause no harm. First we must build our physical bodies to their highest condition.
Your friends may find this lemonade diet to be the answer to their aches, pains, or other troubles. Even if there appears to be nothing wrong, sometimes those are "never sick" will feel even better. Let your friends receive this benefit too.

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Well, I'm new.

I'm here to lose weight. period. To be thin. Beautiful. Happy. Perfect.

I will not tolerate pessimistic fucks. Get over yourself - this is my life, my choice.

Tomorrow is Day One of the master cleanse. I am very excited about it - I've never done anything like this before, and both my roommates are doing it as well! We're getting rid of all food in the house, so no temptations. Plus, the buddy system!

Of course, they don't know about my ED. But that's fine by me - they don't need to know. One of my roomies used to be ana, but she has recovered now, focusing more on her health and well-being. I don't want to push her back into the Stone Age, so I'll use her as inspiration from afar.

She is beautiful... thin, happy, talented, toned. She eats well, so unlike me. I feel so disgusting next to her, all the more reason I love living with her. Although I do hate being the fattest chick on the block.

But no worries, that will soon change. I'm going to fast for at least twenty days, through V-day. No candy for me, nope, no thanks. Give me roses, or even better, give me thin.

Thin is what I want, what I need, right now. When I've achieved my goal, then I'll focus on my health. When I get off the cleanse, I'm going completely vegan, maybe even raw. I don't know if I can part with the stove, though. We'll see. I won't have to worry about that for at least a month, though, so...

Wish me luck, peeps!

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